Perspective at 30 MPH

Ok, so i have thought about a lot today. I came to a stunning conclusion, stunning to myself that i could think this way. Why the hell should I be depressed about me and Kristi breaking up??? It can only cause me more pain, and I have enough of that in my life right now. I am so happy that i got to meet and be with such an incredible woman. I was bombing away on my Time trail bike and that just dawned on me. I can not be mad or sad about it, it is what she wants and needs and that is what i told her I wanted for her when the whole thing started. Do i wish we were together..... hell yes. Do I wish I could have been a better boyfriend....hell yes. I trusted someone with all my heart finally and the outcome was not great but I am still walking and talking. So what can I do next time, not be over bearing and feel like I am the only person who matters, because i know I am like that at times. Its a work in progress. I just realize that you can not always look back on a break up as the most horrible thing that has ever happened. I will still laugh, I will still cry, i will still enjoy my life. I just want everyone to realize that for the first time I am not bitter about this. "If you love something let it go." Maybe I was trying to be Mr. Perfect and we all know I am not perfect, i just want to feel whole again and I am on my way. I will not lie, there is a big chunk of me missing, but I will look for that piece of me somewhere along the road! Now I must go get out in the rain and get sloppy on my bike. Whats not to love about life when you meet incredible people??? I am optimistic about my future, maybe I can be somebody?? Who knows!