don't count der kaiser out yet!!!

WOW, what a difference a week and a half make! Jan Ullrich is back and I think he will be ready for the tour. He just crushed everyone in the Giro TT except for Basso. Jan won and there were huge time gaps, Basso caught Cunego and Cunego started 5 minutes ahead of him. At there level that is very hard to do. Now I think Basso and Salvodelli are the top 2 Giro contenders. But come Tour time watch out for big Jan!!! OK, so update on my life. My knee feels better today, but felt horrible last night. I am going to try and race this weekend and see how it feels. Then on Sunday me and the boys are going to go watch the Tigers play the Reds. Last night I may have went to watch the Pistons game with Adam, Nicky and Holly and gotten a lil tipsy for a bit, but I was normal by about 11 PM. I feel torn between doing the right thing in my head and the right thing in my heart. I know Kristi really doesn't want me around, but it just hurts to come to that realization. I talked to the folks about it and my mom put it best, "nothing I say will make it better or change the fact that you are upset about it." I really want the best for her, even though I still love talking to her, so saying that I may not call anymore. I know she is hurting inside about her ex and it just makes me sad to know she is hurting. I guess friends put it best, if somone wants to be with you then they will, if not then it is not worth worrying about how they are doing or how they are feeling. Things progressed way too fast with me and her and I believe it was a case of her trying to see something in me that she saw in JH, but you can't go looking for someone to be in your life when you can't forget about someone else. I have to think about what I want and what she wants at the same time, the best thing to do is not call her or try to talk to her, because it will just cause worse feelings. I just hope she can figure everything out for herself, because I have figured everything out. It is going to take time, but it is the right thing to do.... I think? I also decided that I am going to try to get into cyclingcenter in Belgium for next season. This means sending them all of my cycling info, doing testing to see where I am really at in my progression and then the decision is up to them. Josh told me it is very expensive, but I will learn a lot. If I really want to take the next step in cycling then I have to do this. I have to say thanks to Adam, Nicky, and Holly for last night, I have known you guys for a long time...maybe too long haha, but you guys are the greatest friends and no matter how long between visits nothing ever changes between us. I must also apologize to Lindsay for my display of total anarchy last night, but you didn't have to choke me for it, haha. OK, gotta go look at the apt for next year!!! Later!