nobody knows!!!

So a good day today, other than work... Well not really, I ran into an old flame while I was riding and she stopped me to talk. She was saying how she missed me and wanted to contact me but didn't know how I would react. So I came out and told her I am much happier without her in my life at all. The weird thing is that it wasn't hard at all. I may be destined to be alone... I got to thinking about her after we parted ways and all I could remember was how bad it was at the end and how everything turned out. I miss talking to her, but not seeing her or hearing about her life, she was a good friend, but I will not reopen that line of communication. Oh well, other than that things are great. There are days when i think about Kristi and how she is doing and there are days where she is so far from my mind. I guess that is where the healing begins. But me writing about her is not good...... So onto my week, I decided not to race in Indiana, but in Chicago all weekend. The competition in Chicago will be top notch and I mean top notch. I want to see how hard it really is... I want to hurt and test my body. Other than that Grattan is Wednesday and regardless of what the Ada boys want to do I may have my own agenda. I know I am filthy strong, so I am gonna lay it all down. I am not worried about results or anything other than punishing my body for what I have done wrong. I have always tried to be everything to everyone and that ends now. I am here for me, not anyone else. If you want to come along for the ride then try to suck my wheel, or something else, haha. OK I better roll, gotta get up early for a morning ride, then work, then another ride. Yeah the life of a cyclist gotta love it!!!