Feeling Alive

First off I want to say Happy Mothers Day to my caring and wonderful mom, you know how much you mean to us mom and we love you. I couldn't imagine a mom that is as great as her.... Thanks for everything. OK, so i have been going over a lot in my head and I am alive as ever. Things that make me feel alive are few but they include my family and my cycling, also great friends and even some people who will never understand how much they really mean to me. So the other day i had a slight "bindle" ( Aussie talk for a crash) and did not realize how bad my knee really was until this mornings ride. Seriously it is not good, but i am strong and it will be fine. I realized that when I am out riding with my tunes on nothing really matters, things just dissappear into the abyss. I am so strong on the bike right now, the strongest I have ever been and it feels good to know this. So I am going to get another ride in today and then relax and think. I talked to kristi today and it felt good to just talk to her. I do not know what is going to happen with her, but all in all being a friend to her is all I can do, I just hope she realizes that I am still here to talk to about anything. This is the first person I have not judged on anything and that felt good to have someone that I could trust. I can not look back and say it was not worth it because it was so worth it. This week my plate is FULL, I have to work 40 hours and then get up at about 4 AM on Saturday to drive over to the East side of the state for the Kensington Valley Road Race. I better have good sensations because last year was not a good race for me. I had stomach problems in the first 5 miles, but still finished with the group after 56 miles. This year is around 70 Miles so lets keep our heads up and look for good things. Life is great at the moment, not all of life, but what can you do about that???