self doubt

I have realized that I will always doubt myself, my ability, and maybe a lot of people around me. I think it is just that I was treated like shit from people that were close to me all my life that I have never had the confidence to say I can or I know i can. It has always been a grind and me working my ass off to get anything in life. I know i may never be the best at things and that i may never go in the path chosen by others, but I think i have come a long way. I don't know I think i am just in a funk again. The one bright spot in life is that Kristi said she thinks she got into the 1500 at Sea Ray. Hopefully she did and she can run great. Since I am not racing this weekend I will have to live vicariously through her athletic endeavors. If I could hang out with any person in the world for one day it would be her, and I am not just saying that to win any favors, those of you who know her will know why I picked her. Later.
J_DUB