off season blunders

So I realize that my offseason preparation has been very lackluster and I am finally understanding why. This offseason I have had a serious lack of motivation, cracked a bone in my pelvis falling on ice, and had mono which later turned into walking pneumonia. Good news is that I am on the mend though, and back to riding nearly every day. I notice form coming along very quickly, but will need to race soon to salvage the season. After next Thursday it will be smooth sailing for a bit and I will be putting in some punishing rides and hours. I know that I have let some teammates down by not racing collegiate, but I need to worry about me first, not anyone else. So that is that and if they have a problem with it then so be it. I have kinda realized cycling is not life, it is something 99.9% of us riders do for excitement and a little competition. So chill, and take er easy!